A Million Miles Away

not managing to name the specialty of his desire for the loved being, the amorous subject falls back on this rather stupid word: adorable.

i forget all the reality in paris which exceeds its charm... i see only the object of an aesthetically restrained desire.

The adorable is what is adorable. Or again: I adore you because you are adorable, I love you because I love you.
       a lovers discourse, roland barthes

when i say that she is adorable, it's never to condescend. i say she is adorable to express some amazement, to be fascinated with something - her, all of her, her words, her face, her tone, her sparkle - that cannot be fetishized because it is intangible! the beauty of love and the adorable is that there's no one thing that I can say, "this is it! this is why...!"

i used to play tetris ad infinitum. it was intriguing because it is an unbeatable, unrepeatable game - you take a different path with each new game but the pieces never change. each new piece connects to form something unique but ultimately futile. you can play continually, but will never win - the game only ends once you've failed. she is my new tetris. and she knows it.

being adorable is delightfully deceiving because it shifts desire from a girl or from an object to the notion of what is adorable... the beauty of this is that though an object of desire can depart, its intangible radiance, its aura will persist as long as you allow it. the thing that's lost though is the best and most selfish hope - the dream that one day the object of your love will love you back.

I can never answer the question, why do you love her?
once you answer a question you move on... i'm happy where i am.
but guys do like gadgets more, and girls who think otherwise are adorable.

being adorable is delightfully deceiving because it shifts desire from
a girl or from an object to the notion of what is adorable...
the beauty of this is that though an object of desire can depart, its
intangible radiance, its aura will persist as long as you allow it. the
thing that's lost though is the best and most selfish hope - the dream
that one day the object of your love will love you back.

I can never answer the question, why do you love her?
once you answer a question you move on... i'm happy where i am.
but guys do like gadgets more, and girls who think otherwise are
adorable.